TSE

Some days are good days. But, then there's days like today.
When every slight situation reminds me of you.
I stare blankly out the bare window pane.
As it begins to lightening, thunder, and slowly rain.

Rain.
It was one of your favorite things.
Remember the nights we sat and listened to the rain trickle on the window of your basement?
As raindrops transformed to downpours hammering the pavement.

Maybe you remember "our perfect kiss?"
You pushing me against the car, resting your hands on my hips as the rain streamed like rivers down our faces.
You swayed my drenched hair to the side and tucked it behind my ear.
It was in that moment I gave up every fear.

I guess i wish so many things didn't remind me of you.
Every time I try to move on, there's always something sucking me back in and making me relive those days.
Making me remember why it was, I was so amazed.

I hear a song; it prompts countless more memories.
That beat up old guitar you always played for me. As you strummed and sang along, our eyes would always meet.
A natural connection, not forced, but pure and sweet.

Remember the night you took me to that park- to the mountains highest peak? It felt like I was on top of the world.
Nothing could hurt me, i knew, because you were by my side.
Two lost souls, now collide.

We settled on the mountain's rock, separated from the brutality of the world.
You start to play; when you sing the lyrics, shivers migrate up my spine and an involuntary smile occupies my face. A photograph, a still frame in my mind.
It was in that moment those two lost souls became forever intertwined.

Maybe you remember "our perfect song?"
Bright Eyes- 'First Day of My Life." Comfortably sitting on my family's couch you attempted to sing it through your blushing cheeks and giggling.
You said I was the only person who ever made you nervous when you were singing- a good nervous.
When the song concluded you leaned in and pressed your lips against mine.
It was in that moment I realized I was falling completely and madly, head over heels, in love with you.
Now you're gone; I'm not sure quite what to do.

It's times like these that make letting go hard. But I know it's time I must say goodbye.
I looked out the that bare window pane one final time today.
In that moment the rain had ceased and so, my tears shall also cease.
I'll continue to cherish all the great memories. But that's all they can be now.
I loved you. A part of me always will. That, I will never regret.
And I promise you, even with time, I'll never forget.